The reality

So, today I got the very first child support check from Jimmy and it's with mixed emotions. I look at it and feel it's justice that he finally has to own up to his responsibility. I think of how the kids will benefit from his money. But for some reason the reality that our marriage is over is finally hitting home. Before now, it's just been "oh I'm getting a divorce, no big deal" but to see this piece of paper in my hand is weird. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Sad that I have to put the kids through this but happy that this is a new beginning or a new chapter of my life.