And the sadness sets in

It has been 3 days since I found out about my husband's secret messages on the internet and this is the first day that I'm actaully sad. It is the first day that I cried. You would think that I would be upset about losing a man that I married almost 6 years ago, but I'm sad that I don't want to work things out. That I would rather walk away from him instead of staying and repairing our marriage. I'm sad that I regret marrying him at 18 years old. I'm sad that I wish the kids weren't part of the picture because things would be so easy. And most important I'm sad that I'm taking our family away from my boys.